Over this past weekend, I decided it was time to make the infinitely revamped and transformed tendrepress.com website live. This, after an extremely long process, more like an epoch in my personal life, the last nine years.

Backstory:

I happened to be looking back through old essays in file cabinets and was utterly startled, indeed dumfounded, to recognize that probably 95% of the hundreds I’ve composed, both published and unpublished, all of which integrate personal experience with collective themes, were not only extremely well-written (in my terms) but still, damn it, relevant to life on this planet!

I say damn it, because right away, I knew that I had to somehow work with my work again. To recapitulate what this singular individual soul had expressed into our suffering world before I “died.” Sounds dramatic, I know. Is it narcissistic? Likely. And very fitting for this Saturn/Neptune in early degrees of Aries moment.

Indeed, the self-centered “narcissist” in each of us needs to raise her fiery hand and shout out loud, without a care in the world:  ME. I BEGIN! Yes. To begin again, to start over, after nobody knows how many thousands of years have passed since Saturn and Neptune both reached 0° of Aries at the same time.

Start again, start over, and, I would add, I call out to especially us old ones who have lived consciously, growing old rather than just getting old: let us recapitulate our lives with the goal of sharing what many decades of life on earth have gifted us with, the glimmering gold of wisdom now gracing the bottom of our souls, with other, younger generations, the ones who will inherit this earth.

Yes, no matter who we are. For the young ones, still of “employment age,” I advise: ignore old tottering structures, systems; ignore the fact that “jobs” are scarce. Instead: what calls out to you personally? What would you do now that would begin to fulfill the purpose for which you were born?

If your response to these questions is bafflement, then know: it is time to plumb the depths of yourself, to let go of mere approval of, “identity” for, others; time to allow who you really are to surface and express into the world, no matter what. You might find yourself alone for awhile; if so, know that you are not really alone; young pioneers are sparking everywhere.

Do that. Become a pioneer, an entrepreneur; Now is the time. We have no choice, We simply must begin (Aries) again, with both direction (Saturn) and vision (Neptune). In fact, folks, the sky’s the limit! And each of us needs to set our own trajectory into the infinitely spacious present moment that opens wide, to receive each of our offerings.

Okay, enough ranting. But then “rants” too, are part and parcel of Saturn/Neptune in Aries. Sudden spurts of energy with a certain direction, arising from nowhere . . .

Back to backstory:

I kept looking back through hundreds of decades-old essays .  . . Soon I also recognized that I was a much better writer and thinker than I am now. Not surprising. After all, I was in my prime. From 1985 on, when I got my first computer, a used Apple IIe, instantly, the flow of  thought from beyond into language through brain to fingers on keyboard, was steady and seamless. And much much faster, than even my electric typewriter! Given my Mars in Sagittarius exact opposition to Uranus in Gemini, the lifelong frustration with translating synthesized, alchemized left brain real world experience with right brain intuition — into language and then expressed, to be shared with others, was suddenly solved.

I’ll be commenting further,  on this feat, and I do consider it a huge feat, to have actually managed to get this recap project out into the world.

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