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Ann Kreilkamp / Ph.D. 83

Astrologer, published author, conference presenter, world traveler, founder & editor of Crone Chronicles: A Journal of Conscious Aging (1989-2001) , and founding visionary of Green Acres Permaculture Village (2010 to present).

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Prepare for Liftoff! DISCONNECT THE DOTS

September 16, 2022

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See yesterday’s post.

Here is another early piece that may help in the process of centering as we head into the maelstrom. I will post one more, tomorrow, on the breathing practice of tonglen.

Prepare for Liftoff! DISCONNECT THE DOTS

 

Here’s a simple exercise that I find myself doing at odd moments, during those “spaces” between events, while “waiting” — for something to happen — for sleep to take me, to move to the head of the line, for an event to start, etc.

Rather than pay attention to people, or things, I focus on the spaces between and among them. Moving from room to room in my home, I observe the seemingly frozen lake of space in which material objects are held in suspension.

Sometimes I try this exercise at different scales, macro to micro.

 

Macro: rather than pay attention to earth as a planet, I notice the space in which she is held, seemingly suspended, in relation to other planets, each unique and apart and yet all together in the womb of space.

NASA: Helix Nebula

Zooming further out, to our solar system as a tiny cluster around a single star in the starry night sky; if I am quiet enough, if I can deeply listen, I seem to be attuning to the harmonics of (infinite? It seems so) space in which light beings sing like angels.

Sometimes, glimpses into the vastness make me dizzy, or give me a strong shock. My child self can’t help but ask: Why don’t they fall? What holds them there, or rather, here? If they fell, where would they go? Is there a bottom to the sky?

(Aaaaah! Too much! Too much! Please, I need to frame up my experience, carve boundaries, set limits, decide what I believe, attain certainty . . .)

Whoosh back down, and in . . . to Earth. Here, landed, feet on the ground inside this, “my body.” Feel my own, unique body upon Her. Feel the minerals and chemicals and other nutrients that make up my body as those that make up Her body. Feel this body as “my” tiny portion of Earth’s body, a living, breathing antenna for Her watery feelings . . .

 

Stem cells

Micro: Penetrate further and further in . . . to a single cell, notice the space within that cell holding atoms and molecules and electrons, like planets, or galaxies, suspended . . .

See that cell’s membrane as a circle. Take any circle, see the points within that frame. Rather than focus on the points — describing them, counting them, grouping them, analyzing them, or snapping them into a gestalt — notice, become aware of, attune to, the essentially mysterious space that holds them all in fine array.

Circles within circles. Larger and larger, smaller and smaller. Circles intersecting with circles, arcing bounded spaces within the void.

Focus in on the line forming the circumference of any particular circle. View this line with a microscope. Notice how it, too, is composed of points in space.

Aaaah! The boundary of any circle is porous, permeable. At every level, space holds points in space, and with greater magnification, it still does. No matter how “close” the points appear to one another in “real life,” they are evanescent, incandescent . . .

For the point itself — has no dimension, does not “take up” space! At the bottom of the within, there is nothing, no thing, just space, the plenum, an etheric ocean, the flux from which “things” arise and fall, form and unform, in endless, fathomless, spiraling mystery. Zero equals infinity. Both exist on either side of “any series of numbers.” Both indicate the plenum that holds any number of dots.

 

I do this exercise to let go of desire.

I do this exercise to jostle loose the seemingly dense, stuck, material structures that our collective minds have created and hold in place.

I do this exercise, of seeing spaces between and among points at any level, to disconnect the dots and open, wide, to the multiverse and her infinity of dimensions beyond and within the three-dimensional one in which we appear to be living.

 

THE PIVOT POINT: Integrating Shock as Time Accelerates

September 15, 2022

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As I slog through my multi-year project to archive what’s still timely from many hundreds of essays, both published and unpublished that I have written over these many decades, I happened to look through the first few years of the exopermaculture.com site yesterday. That site is still up, as its own archive, and functioned from early 2011 through August of 2021, when I transitioned over to this site, annkreilkamp.net. Exopermaculture includes probably 10,000 posts.

Right away, I noticed a number of very early posts on exopermaculture that are actually more timely now. For example this one,  from March 1, 2011, which carries the same title as this piece and begins by describing a harrowing airplane trip home from a UFO Congress that lasted many many hours and involved an extraordinary group process. (Well worth reading, if you’re interested.)

Now, in September 2022,  I decided to repost the rest of that piece here.

 

 

THE PIVOT POINT:

“Pivot in Place, Absorb and Integrate. NOW.”

 

Excerpt from a post on

Exopermaculture.com

March 1, 2011

 

For many years, during the time when I was undergoing a personal evolutionary process so strong and continuous that I knew I had to stay centered to stay sane, I thought of it as being “on point,” like a dancer, balanced. That image was static; now the phrase that comes in is dynamic, “the pivot point.” By this I refer to being able to “pivot in place,” to absorb shock and integrate it, instantly. The process of pivoting is the integration, and doesn’t knock me off my center.

The phrase first came to me when I noticed my response to a situation where I had almost joined someone else on his website, as a writer. Both of us were excited about the opportunity the project presented. Then, after five hours of talking long distance by phone over a three day period, we discovered that our visions diverged in certain aspects essential to both of us. I started this website instead.

What impressed me about that five-day adventure was that I had managed to integrate it almost immediately. My excitement had allowed me to absorb both his worldview, and the opportunity our partnership presented — to the point where we could find that we were not aligned after all. Had I not allowed myself to become excited, I would not have fully opened to absorb it. Had we joined forces, I would have gone against my nature, and the longer I went before I admitted that it wasn’t right for me, the more difficult it would have been to end it with integrity.

Thus the pivot point: to eagerly and swiftly absorb the entirety of a situation, and move it through to completion. To pivot on point is to end the long-running or sporadic dramas that have dragged my emotional and mental bodies into the mud. Pivot in place. Absorb and integrate. NOW.

But how to do that? And why is it important?

It seems to me that the longer we take to let go of dramas, the harder time we will have in flowing with the fast track of events that accompany the acceleration of time that has been predicted by both Mayans and astrologers, and manifested through our symbiosis with swiftly emerging technologies.

For me, once I woke up to the fact that I had been engaging in patterned dramas since the time I was a child, I started to identify these dramas while they were happening, and to discover how to integrate them. At first, such processing took years, then months, weeks. . . I was learning to both extract myself from dramas and then allow and honor the emotional hurt feelings that accompanied them — until the feelings transformed. I was learning, in other words, to let go what had formerly held me fast, in suffering.

The point is, we can be excited without being attached. We can fully enter into a situation —body, mind and soul — without identifying with it. In fact that seems key. While our bodies undergo certain trials (like lack of sleep, cramped conditions, unexpected shocks one after another, the stress of airborne turbulence), our minds and spirits can remain detached. This takes practice. For me, I credit tai chi and chi kung, but there are many other meditative practices that also inculcate the gradual letting go of attachment to any situation in which we might find ourselves.

Where this becomes important is when we find ourselves both individually and collectively having to face situations that are unexpected, uncomfortable, even painful, and prolonged. I don’t know how I’ll do when and if, for example, our transportation system breaks down and food is no longer on the shelves of chain grocery stores. I don’t know how I’ll do when I am cold for weeks because electricity has been off again. I don’t know. But what I can do is practice detachment and compassion. I can pivot on point, integrate shocks one by one while remaining centered. Meanwhile I can serve to help create an atmosphere of love and calm in the midst of turbulent storms.

This kind of skill, for it is a skill and it can be learned, will become more and more valuable during the coming years as we transition from our insular world-view that sees humans all alone on a resource-depleted planet in a cold and scary universe into a vastly expanded world-view that recognizes all beings, whether on or off-world, as aspects of the divine in a universe of unlimited potential for abundance of every kind we can imagine — and then some!

We are in transforming into oneness. Let us make the most of it. Welcome to the adventure!

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”And you? My teacher looked up, his left eyebrow arched, pencil poised. 'I want to do a paper on the concept of time.’” I mumbled, timidly. 'Time?' He sniffed. “I wouldn’t touch the subject. Too difficult.” — AK, 1967
“The longer we live, the larger, the richer the background against which all future experiences take place, and the more complex and subtle our understanding of our own past.” — AK, 1986, A Soul’s Journey
“To me, the most interesting question about human memory is why only certain events, rather than others, carry a charge. Where does the charge come from?” — AK, 1986, A Soul’s Journey
“At a party, many decades ago, a man whom I had just met burst out, in a tone of wonder: ‘You are the first continuously splitting schizophrenic I’ve ever met!’ I bowed low and responded, ‘Thank you!’”
”And you? My teacher looked up, his left eyebrow arched, pencil poised. 'I want to do a paper on the concept of time.’” I mumbled, timidly. 'Time?' He sniffed. “I wouldn’t touch the subject. Too difficult.” — AK, 1967
Ann Kreilkamp

Ann Kreilkamp

Ph.D. 83

Astrologer, published author, conference presenter, world traveler, founder & editor of Crone Chronicles: A Journal of Conscious Aging (1989-2001) , and founding visionary of Green Acres Permaculture Village (2010 to present).