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Ann Kreilkamp / Ph.D. 83

Astrologer, published author, conference presenter, world traveler, founder & editor of Crone Chronicles: A Journal of Conscious Aging (1989-2001) , and founding visionary of Green Acres Permaculture Village (2010 to present).

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TIME GLITCHES over the weekend leave me baffled

March 9, 2026

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I drove to the  Winter’s Farmer’s Market Saturday morning, as usual. Left here around 7:45. Takes 15 minutes to get there. Wanted to walk prior to market, which starts at 9 AM, so I did, probably the only one in Bloomington to do so, since it was windy and “raining cats and dogs.” My own dog, Scampi, refused to leave the car. So I took off down the B-Line trail without him. Went 2 miles (I walk 15-minute miles), then came back, figuring I still had 30 minutes to take Scampi out too. Asked a woman on way back to the car, “What time is it?” “about 8:50 or 8:55,” she responded.

That was the first surprise. Couldn’t take Scampi out for a mile, but a half mile would be okay. He agreed to get out of the car, though reluctant, since rain wasn’t quite as bad. We walked about a half-mile up the B-Line, with him stopping to sniff and/or pee on just about every nearby bush. I put him back into the car, got out my bags, and walked over to the market and inside. Wandered around the largish loop at least three times, with stops here and there, to buy bread, greens, Lions Mane mushroom (for brain health!), etc. Thought about other purchases while wandering, stopping here and there to talk to vendors, saying hi to several people — a very immersive experience.

Bloomington Winter Farmers Market is the oldest one in Indiana, with an amazing array of  vendors from all over rural southern Indiana.

For this past Saturday:

Finally I walked out, and over to the car, putting the bag in the back seat, climbing into the front seat and starting the car.

Started to drive. Figuring it must be at least 10 AM, looked at the clock. What? The clock said 10:30, which meant 9:30 — since the time change wouldn’t occur until Sunday morning at 12:00 AM, and I don’t change it back, just leave it where it is, as if DST, with a mental note during EST months every time I look at it). So how could it be 9:30, when I did so much, in only 90 minutes? Walked two miles, then walked a half mile, slowly, with breaks, then wandered slowly, with many stops, some for many minutes, round and round in the farmer’s market?

I drove home completely befuddled. Not “missing time,” but it’s opposite. What to call it, “expanding time?”

 

Then, on Sunday, I woke up and assumed it was Monday. That assumption lasted about five hours, during which I was completely befuddled as to how I had spent Sunday, forgetting all about what I must have done, etc. I mean, I’m basically taking three days off each week now, with very much lessened responsibilities (all self-imposed, BTW), during those three days, and here it is already Monday, and I’m still exhausted, needing another day!

So I thought. So I then, when I finally “got it,” and with great relief and joy, expanded into the utter freedom of Sunday.

I had an extra day!

Well no, you didn’t. You had the three days as usual.

But it feels like I had an extra day!

Okay okay.

 

The above story is likely boring to anyone who has not experienced such weird glitches in time. And who has not? Most of us just chalk it up to absent-mindedness. But somehow, I couldn’t. Not this time. Something is going on; and I don’t think it just has to do with me! Nor do I think it’s just that damn time change we undergo every spring and fall.

And BTW: I’m not talking about “losing track of time,” what happens when we are utterly focused and fully immersed in whatever we are doing NOW. Or, for those with UFO “contact” experience, what happens when “we are missing four hours of time.” No. I’m talking the opposite, not missing time, but expanding time. 

Okay. So then what? WHAT THE HELL IS GOING ON?

Is the Saturn/Neptune igniting at 0° of Aries (though Saturn has now moved to 1°) discombobulating our usual, Cartesian, Newtonian, “linear time?” Our notion that the past is receding, the future approaching and the NOW just a blip on a screen that keeps on disappearing?

I hardly “know what I’m talking about” here. Who does?

Conspiracy theory speaks up, wanting to “nail it down”: Aha! It’s CERN! That damn Hadron Collider, messing things up!

Oh yeah, maybe so. But just think, the basic framework within which at least western humans have lived for hundreds of years, that of 3D space and time, that primary structure or framework within which all events “take place” and all meaning is measured, is, disintegrating, making room, plenty of room, way too much room, for whatever comes next.  Whatever for me, whatever for you, whatever for this town, this region, this earth, etc., all possibly on their own “time lines,” or, I should say “inside their own mutating time frames.”

Is there a “larger space” within which they all co-exist? And if so, do they co-exist “separately,” or mutually, and at least partially, embedding each other? On and on, so many questions. And all of them, if I can put them into words, as a “prompt,” can be, supposedly, “answered.” Oh? Really?

So yes. How much does this existential confusion have to do with the force feeding of AI? Turning us into transhuman bots? And is this technological revolution what has obliterated linear space/time? Leaving us where, why, when, how, and for what?

Might it be that soon, even our (themselves mutating over long periods of time) verbal languages, which we have used to connect with each other for thousands (millions?) of “years,” while at least partially “nailing down” “experiences” in a way that we can all point to and “know what we mean” — is/are disintegrating, leaving us mute, alone, all-one?

But I don’t say this with Rumi’s mystical sway. I say it on this Monday morning, with, I admit, trepidation, my all-too-human ego utterly terrified of its own extinction.

 

 

Shining through the Prevailing Gloom, THIS! As if the Dark was shot through with Light . .

March 5, 2026

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Here’s what it looks like outside, this morning. Supposed to stop raining, for now, at around 9 AM. But who knows what’s next weatherwise, and when and for how long?

Meanwhile, I want to convey here an extraordinary encounter I had in my nearby bank branch during yesterday’s gloom. It’s as if the dark was shot through with light! With LOVE.

First, to set the stage:

Dogs are allowed. So Scampi (have been told he’s a “schnoodle”) trots in there like he owns the place. In fact, he garners so much attention that I’m surprised he’s still allowed in. Especially since, twice, in past month, when noticing a man in a uniform there (UPS driver), he barked, fiercely, twice each time, guarding the bank. And his bark, believe me, is awful: high, shrill, triggers my hair-trigger nervous system every time. Yesterday, when it happened for the second time, I joked, out loud, with a number of clerks nearby: “Hmmm. I wonder if he had another life in Nazi Germany . . .?”

Joking like that is endemic, for me. I simply can’t help myself. Just like the new code word that I must use when I call up my accounts: It is, shshsh, don’t tell . . . oops! I guess I shouldn’t say it here; but just know that it refers to my so-called social “status.”

And I say it, each time, very conspiratorially; the clerks love my calling out my advanced age in public.

So, yesterday, as I was doing my business, there was another man doing his business at the next window. I had noticed him briefly on the way in; old, like me, and looking somewhat excited, though hesitant, and even scared, as he walked around his small truck with camper atop it. Scampi of course, had gone up to him, and though distracted, he had stopped to offer his hand to Scampi’s curious nose.

So I went in, preceded by tiny King Scampi. And on up to one of the clerk stations. As I was doing my business, I happened to overhear the clerk next to mine ask, curiously, “Oh, and where are you going?”  That’s all. Didn’t hear the response. Didn’t think much of it. That nearby exchange had just blown through me, like the wind.

 

But then, when I  was done, and stepped aside, so did the old man, the two of us momentarily and inadvertently facing each other; divine timing, exact: as if the entire scene was staged.

I asked (like I so often do, engaging strangers in conversation): “Where are you going?”

And he told me: “Moss Beach,” which I picked up as located in some state east and south of here. Also picked up on his internal excitement.

“Oh, is it on the ocean?” I stood still, waiting . . .

“Yes!” To my look of curiosity, he continued, excitement now visible: “I am going to visit my cousin, whom I have not seen in 35 years!”

“Wow, 35 years! That got to me.

“How wonderful! Glad you’re still having adventures!”

His face was filling with joy.

I asked him how old he was. After a tiny moment of hesitation, he answered: “I’m 81.”

“Oh, well I’m 83!” I replied.

With this mutual admission, our communion was total. The two of us were one.

Yes, I couldn’t help but mind and heart meld with this wizened old man who, likely, had never engaged in a conversation such as the one we were having. My gaze had reached across the five foot chasm to his, and it was illuminated with joy, like that of an innocent child. I imagine my face appeared the same to him. Because I too, felt illumined with joy. The joy of discovery, moment by moment, that I am still alive!

Our communion was total. We had entered a higher, more soulful dimension, together, for a brief, but lingering moment in 3D. Both of us fully and utterly present, we had together, without even trying, opened space.

“SO GRATEFUL . . .” we both murmured, meaningfully, at once.

 

With that I wished him well, and to have a wonderful adventure.

His face was beginning to tear up as he turned away, embarrassed, murmuring, “Bless you.”

 

Wow, this little scene, standing in full public view, witnessed by others, in a bank! This moment of utter communion. Two beings, both aging, both growing old, rather than getting old, for one blessed moment, together, as One.

When unlikely scenes like this one are actual, what is not possible?

Remember, re-member:

OPENSPACE IS A VERB

 

 

 

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”And you? My teacher looked up, his left eyebrow arched, pencil poised. 'I want to do a paper on the concept of time.’” I mumbled, timidly. 'Time?' He sniffed. “I wouldn’t touch the subject. Too difficult.” — AK, 1967
“The longer we live, the larger, the richer the background against which all future experiences take place, and the more complex and subtle our understanding of our own past.” — AK, 1986, A Soul’s Journey
“To me, the most interesting question about human memory is why only certain events, rather than others, carry a charge. Where does the charge come from?” — AK, 1986, A Soul’s Journey
“At a party, many decades ago, a man whom I had just met burst out, in a tone of wonder: ‘You are the first continuously splitting schizophrenic I’ve ever met!’ I bowed low and responded, ‘Thank you!’”
”And you? My teacher looked up, his left eyebrow arched, pencil poised. 'I want to do a paper on the concept of time.’” I mumbled, timidly. 'Time?' He sniffed. “I wouldn’t touch the subject. Too difficult.” — AK, 1967
Ann Kreilkamp

Ann Kreilkamp

Ph.D. 83

Astrologer, published author, conference presenter, world traveler, founder & editor of Crone Chronicles: A Journal of Conscious Aging (1989-2001) , and founding visionary of Green Acres Permaculture Village (2010 to present).